October 25, 2015
This has been a hard week. Chad had surgery on Tuesday. He wrote a letter all about it so I won’t go
into those details. It was a nerve
racking day for me. I felt like Chad
would come out of the anesthesia fine, but I prayed so hard that they would be
able to repair his meniscus. If his
tears were too bad they wouldn’t have been able to repair it and his knee would
give him lots of trouble as he got older and it would prevent him from playing
sports as long as he would like. Sports are
his stress relief so I really prayed hard his knee could be repaired.
The first couple of days after the surgery were
quite rough. Chad was quite weak and in
a lot of pain. His pain killers didn’t
seem to do a whole lot for him. He has
progressively gotten stronger and is not in pain anymore.
Thursday was a really rough day for me. I had a hard morning with Karalee and Marlee
before they left for school. They both
went to school mad. I literally had to
carry Marlee to the carpool car while she was kicking and screaming. She was throwing a huge fit about her
shoes. I felt terrible that both the
girls left mad and I knew that I could have handled things better. Later that morning I had an appointment with
Dr. Beck, my ob/gyn, to make sure I had miscarried completely. (While we were in Mexico I started bleeding
instead of just spotting so I was pretty sure I had miscarried.) The miscarriage is complete and I am glad that
it is all over, but it was really emotional for me. I had to come home from the appointment and have a good cry about
it. A lot of the emotion probably
stemmed from feeling so badly about the fights with the girls that morning and
from the stress and worry about Chad’s surgery that week. Thursday afternoon I had a good talk with
Karalee and then another one with Marlee and I apologized for the things I
could have done better and we worked things out.
Friday was a good day. I drove Chad to physical therapy. He’s not supposed to drive for 6 weeks since
he is not supposed to put any weight on his right leg, but he really didn’t
like that and he’s already figured out a way to drive himself around. Later that morning I went to lunch with a few
friends to celebrate Cydnie Pillion’s birthday.
It was nice to visit with my friends.
Yesterday I had a busy morning because I had a two
hour stake auxiliary training meeting before the kids’ soccer games. I got home in time to fix the girls hair for
their games and then we left. On the way
to the fields I realized I had left my phone at home. After walking to the one of furthest soccer
fields, I sat down to watch Marlee play only to realize that I was pretty sure
I was supposed to bring after game snacks for Marlee’s team. (I hate the
tradition of snacks at each game by the way.)
Since I had left my phone at home I couldn’t check to make sure. I asked the mom who set it all up and sure
enough I was supposed to bring the snacks.
I felt like such a looser mom. Thankfully
my friend was able to bail me out because her husband was coming late and he
was able to grab some snacks at the store but I couldn’t shake the feeling of
being such a looser since I didn’t keep my commitment to bring the snacks. It’s been too stressful of a week! Usually I can shake those things off and know
that I’ll do better next time but I felt quite depressed for most of the
day. Then my friend Nicole Rudd, who
happens to be our stake relief society president, dropped by to bring me some
cookies and a nice note because she’d read my Facebook post on Thursday where I
had felt so badly about the bad morning with my girls. She said she’d meant to come by on Thursday
or Friday but hadn’t gotten to it. Her
timing of the note couldn’t have been better though. She lifted my spirits and I know that
Heavenly Father inspired her to come help me through a rough day.
Today has been a good day. I don’t feel depressed anymore and I’m ready
for a new week. I’m looking forward to
our ward Halloween “Extravaganza” this Friday night. We’re having a chili cook-off, carnival games
and a trunk or treat. Chad is making dry
ice root beer and dry ice red cream soda--he has some helpers to do all the
lifting a stirring since he’s laid up.
He’ll manage them and explain what to do.
My quote for today is from Elder Holland, “To all mothers in every circumstance,
including those who struggle—and all will—I say, ‘Be peaceful. Believe in God
and yourself. You are doing better than you think you are. In fact, you are
saviors on Mount Zion, and like the Master you follow, your love ‘never faileth’’”
(Behold Thy Mother).
I sure needed these words this week.
Love,
Mindy
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